Hopeful!

As many of you know, I was on antibiotics for Lyme disease and coinfections (mainly Bartonella) for 11 months.  I got off of them a few weeks ago when my body seemed to get overwhelmed with all the meds and I had 20+ seizures.  We aren't sure what caused them, but I'm pretty sure it was the medicine or a combination of them.

The antibiotics got me about 70% better I would say this past year.  That might not sound like a lot to you, but most people with late stage or chronic Lyme would love to reach that mark.  So many people are suffering and DON'T get better on antibitocs.  Or they need YEARS or a LIFETIME of antibiotics.  I knew I wasn't going to be one of those people.  And between prayer, positive thinking, and straight up ass kicking I seem to be getting there!

When I was in ICU for 3 days (two different hospitals!), I felt like I was losing.  I had lost the battle.  But these past few weeks off of antibiotics have shown me that I am still winning!  But I still have that 30% that I want back.  I will not stop at 70% better.  That's for wusses and that's just not me.  I want at least 99% :)  I've always been an honor roll student.

So after many days of listening to my body and prayer after prayer, God has given me a great gift.  Through a series of coincidences and signs, I have such a ~peace~ within me now.  God has taken my uncertainty for the future of my health and has literally just plopped an answer right into my lap.  It cracks me up how magical God is!  I know this stuff doesn't happen every day and it's happened to me a few times in my life and it's just amazing.  I'm so blessed and so loved.

I will be heading up to WI tomorrow to meet with a naturopath to help me heal further.  She didn't have any appointments until late February and she magically had an opening for TOMORROW.  Ha!  Signs, signs, everywhere there's signs!  And I will hopefully be starting on an all herbal protocol.  No more antibiotics!!!  Hurray! 

I am SO hopeful.  I feel peace and love and I just feel like I'm being given a great big hug.  All I did was quiet my mind in meditation and asked God for guidance.  When I stop my mental chatter and focus on my breath, I can really feel His love.  I know that I'll be just fine when I focus on this divine stillness. 

Honor roll here I come!!!